13 August 2010

A new Day

Lately my faith has been tested. Sometimes I wonder if it is strong enough to withold some of the things that I know must come to pass in order for me to grow. School is approaching fast, and the same old story is on the shelves. Financial Need. My textbooks are EXSPENSIVE. Story of a college student's life right? And since I felt led to switch my major from journalism to nursing, well, the biology books and cat disection kits add up. But for some reason I feel as if I am supposed to do this. And then there is a little voice in my head asking me: Are you doing the right thing? What is the right thing? I know that what I want may not be what God wants. I am still a baby when it comes to my faith and trusting God whole-heartedly. Proverbs 16:9 says "A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” What does that mean? That though my heart may say I want to do nursing, that I may be headed in another direction? Maybe. Probably. Still trying to figure Him out I guess haha. Continuing to pray for all of you...Pray for me please!

09 August 2010

Truth Reconciled

Truth Reconciled
She stared at a blank page full of words. The only one that seemed to be illuminated for her personal demise was love. Then, as if warped into a 3 dimensional world taken from some unknown force, she blanked out. Her eyes were focused on the scene played out before her. She was dancing with a man who she had never seen, pleasing to the eye yes. He beamed into her face and a feeling of accomplishment consumed her. Then he disappeared. She hardly had any time to wonder where her mysterious companion went until someone else fulfilled his empty role. The beauty that He possessed was unlike any known to the human eye. His radiance and light was all too wonderful, she could do nothing but stare. Her feet were lifted off the ground as He took her by the hand. Then He placed one hand on the small of her back, and they began to dance effortlessly in the air. Feeling unusually comfortable in His arms, she laid her head on His broad shoulders. She had never seen Him but acknowledged His presence. He gazed into her face, fierce with emotion. The love He had for her pressed into her bosom, and yet the pain He felt weighed heavily onto her heart. A voice of many waters sang into her ears and she looked into the intriguing face. The voice sang: I kept you when no one else kept you, held you when no one else loved you, protected you when no one else protected you, knew you when no one else knew you, saved you when no one else could save you, and loved you when no one else loved you. Despite this knowledge you unknowingly attain, you continue to neglect Me. You deny My power and limit My love to a supernatural force that you believe cannot be attained unless in death. Your desire has been poured into a creature so unworthy of grace. Am I not all you have desired? Am I not the dream fulfilled? You have painted a picture with no colors. Naïve in your ways, I sustain my love for you. I will never leave you even when man will. At his last word the light and glory vanished with her companion. The sole movement was the travel of tears rushing in line to their destination. In fetus position, she longed for the unknown lover to make his return. Hours passed and He had not granted her the gift of his restoration. Agony consumed her and her heart could not bring bear the pain he had left. She suddenly heard the faint sound of a stream in the distance. The voice of many had waters returned unaccompanied by its owner. It said: Fear not, for I am with always with you, and I will love you for eternity. Back into conciseness she traveled, marveling over the true love of her life.

02 August 2010

Daddy's Girl

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been on in a while, I have been really busy with my family making the move from Maryland to Texas, while getting ready to get back to college in a couple of weeks. So needless to say, things get a little crazy. I cannot wait to get back to school. Anyway, when I logged in and saw I had 4 new followers, I said to myself Check SpellingThank You God! Haha...thank you guys for the comments as well, you have no idea how great it feels just to know that ONE person even comes across my blog. So, yesterday I was reading Luke 4:40 which says, "While the sun was setting, all those who had any who were sick with various diseases brought them to Him; and laying His hands on each one of them, He was healing them." At first glance, I got that while Jesus walked the earth, He healed people..all kinds of people. He did not care what how bad the sickness was or seemed, He had the power to rebuke it. But then I read the verse again, particularly focusing on "...brought them to Him". They brought what to Him? The sickness? Yes! I think ever since I was a little girl, I thought that sickness, exspecially the worst type of illness was apart of who we are as humans. But it is not. Sickness is an ill spirit which must be rebuked and cast out in the name of Jesus Christ. I came to this passage because recently my father had to go to the emergency room for back pains and as a result he is out of work for a while. When I was younger I was a severe daddy's girl and I was up under him 24/7. So now news that may seem small to others seems big to me because he is my dad, and I got my personality from him. I could sulk about it, but all I can do is pray because I know that there is a Healer better than any doctor or physician this world has ever seen. I may be a daddy's girl, but I am also a Fathers girl, and He never wants to see me down. I know I have a lot to work on with my faith, but I believe that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28).